You know what, I don’t care. I’m done wondering and guessing ‘cause I shouldn’t make assumptions with you, I get no where. I’m stopped dead in my tracks and everytime I take one step forward it’s like someone put me at the starting line. Funny thing is there never was a starting line, it was just always there. I like it though, otherwise I wouldn’t still be around. I like the anomosity and the uncertaintity. It keeps me going and surprisingly makes me happy. Even though you’re apathetic, I love it.
Then you do it again, all over again and I feel BLANK.
I know you’re “taken” but have you ever just gone with something to see how it could play out? Or are you going to let your fears and overwhelming thoughts keep you from something that has potential to flower into something so wonderful, so beautiful. I just want you to be happy, not lost and confused and unsure. So do what makes you happy. Do you know how happy you make me? …Do you even know you make me happy? I know this all may seem “obvious” but its not. You may think you understand whats rolling through my mind, but your unfortunately behind. Or maybe I’m behind and it’s all just one big overly thought out thought.
This simply seems to be misconstrued confusion. Or not understood correctly.
I just want to know. What you’re really thinking, feeling and wanting, wishing for, waiting for.. everything. I’m always curious. But maybe one day, at this point it’s all I can wish for C:
But you’re good at that, and I like it.
The truth is that the more intimately you know someone, the more clearly you’ll see their flaws. That’s just the way it is. This is why marriages fail, why children are abandoned, why friendships don’t last. You might think you love someone until you see the way they act when they’re out of money or under pressure or hungry, for goodness’ sake. Love is something different. Love is choosing to serve someone and be with someone in spite of their filthy heart. Love is patient and kind, love is deliberate. Love is hard. Love is pain and sacrifice, it’s seeing the darkness in another person and defying the impulse to jump ship.
I quote others only to better express myself.
—Michel de Montaigne (via creatingaquietmind)